This is going to be quick b/c I'm on my way out the door to work, but it's been on my mind.
DS is just ending 2 weeks of spring break. Tomorrow (his first day back to ST) is also his 1 year eval/review thing for EI. I don't know why I'm so nervous about this, I don't think they're going to tell me anything I don't already know. His ST is pretty good about discussing things with me before so she doesn't just WHAM me with something big all at once. I don't even think she's going to tell me anything other than "yes, he's still delayed in expressive, we'll keep seeing him and transition him to something else". So why the heck am I so nervous? I've even considered calling in sick, but I know that's not going to make it go away
We'll probably talk about what we're going to transition him to (not looking forward to that at all) and she might give me more info on the UofM thing to send Owen for another eval there. But I know all that, that's nothing for me to be nervous about. ARGH!
I've had anxiety attacks before and after evals (somehow I hold it together during...), and I had to take a little something the night before the last eval we had (TEACCH) because I was so darned nervous and wired. So yes, I tend to freak just a little bit.
Wednesday is our EI eval. I think the thing is, you're once again slapped in the face with your child's delays. Even if you know how delayed they are, it's still hard to see it in writing or watch as they fail those little tests they give.
Ploebz- I think the first time was the hardest just because I knew he was delayed. I knew he was delayed a lot in that one area. I just didn't know how much he was delayed (and the numbers were quite shocking to me). I think this time I have a general idea of where he is, but I still dread seeing the number sitting there. Staring at me in black and white.
I am also not looking forward to talking to them about transitioning. The place they want him to go when he turns 3 I have heard a LOT of bad stuff about, and only one good thing (a teacher there uses sign language- she doesn't actually teach it to the kids but if the kids sign something to her then she at least knows what it is).
Blah. As you can tell, I'm still awake (it's almost 1:30 in the morning here). Can't sleep, again.