I just found out yesterday that my baby stopped growing at 6wks, and I was to be 8 wks yesterday. In my heart I knew something was wrong, I wasn't very sick. I knew this was going to happen, I was so nervous going in to the OB office for my first U/S. But when he said "well, I see a baby, but I don't see a heart beat", and I saw that little bean just laying there, moving only with the bumps of the U/S wand, my heart sank. I think I was doing a lot better yesterday. Why am I this upset, I have 3 beautiful babies, and this was to be my 4th. We were told after our first losses 6 yrs ago that we would never be able to have kids, so why can't I just be happy with my 3? With my other losses it was all over with by the time I got into the doctors office, I never saw a baby. This time I saw him in there, and my body won't just start this already. I still wake up a bit nauseous, I hate this. My 21 mnth old weaned herself about two weeks after I found out, so I don't even have my "baby" to go back to. Why does anybody have to go through this? Why can't everybody either be pregnant or not pregnant? Why is this such a guessing game? I know so many others have lost so much farther along. This just sucks.